you can see from my house, we’ll go everywhere!

On a train that has no estimated arrival time at the destination of purpose, is not pleasant feeling. It is because of the major flooding of the railway after Bristol, which is an awful thing. I have connections to make and this is ruining them. If it terminates in Bristol, what am I to do?

Well it didn’t terminate there. In fact I’m now rolling by flooded fields on the way to reading. Literally stop starting. I will read a book called ‘The Unbearable lightness of being’ and it so far it’s really interesting! Its all about how our lives in the bigger picture are meaningless, our actions are irrelevant, this is the lightness. When as people, we feel these actions as a weighty burden, all our decisions in life affect others but mostly ourselves. The psychology involved is infinite and what more, maybe by understanding the concept we can truly free ourselves from mental restraint. Maybe it will give me ideas for photography.

So I am still on the train,  nearly at reading, two hours later. Not good. Should phone the dad. Maybe then I can sleep.

This person is very inspiring to me right now > http://www.markrogers.com.au – I think I might e-mail or better yet, write him a nice formal letter, asking him some questions about the business. He is what I want to be. Someone that creates simply beautiful pictures. I have plenty of other research to get through. I might just look at tons of photographers later this week, print all their stuff off and stick it in a sketchbook.. feed myself ideas.

Life is lunacy but heading towards a relaxing intellectual & photographically stimulating time. Its the Christmas break, so during this time I want to collapse at home by doing virtually nothing for a while. This is because the last time I had no responsibility was well over 6-8 months ago. Now I get the chance again.

I will be able to see all my old friends & new ones, celebrating birthdays & Christmas with the girlfriend, I still can fit time in for my greater purpose… my career, and the slow eradication of stupid procrastination.

Saw Tubelord the other day in Falmouth. Blinding set, although shorter than expected.

I just got a fantastic e-mail today, its that my camera, the long awaited 5D Mark II will be delivered tomorrow. Just the thought makes my mind scream with happiness. Its like buying a new car, or house! Its a toy and a money making device. Lets just hope the latter happens more so. Although that’s all down to me. The first place the photos will be seen will be @ http://www.flickr.com/people/bencatchpole/.

Home is wonderful, its freezing too but is giving me a time to relax. The whole family are out during the days, so it gives me free reign to explore the place.. lie on the floor looking at the frankly boring ceiling, find old belongings in the loft & poke the cat. The worst thing is the recent lack of money. I did not know that a housemate was late in cashing one of my cheques for the bills, thus I have actually gone over my overdraft. Moneywise I am in such an awful state.

Hopefully I can go to birmingham tomoorow, even if my camera is arriving the same day. Things to do, things to buy, my friends to hang out with.

If I don’t get in touch by christmas, make it merry.

remixes & retrospective to all x